What made you stop being an addict?

Now I have the mental fortitude to face life's every day battles.

Just keep trying

This was February 2019.

How was your first cuckolding experience as a husband?

Do I wake up everyday with lots of energy? No but that's because I have a health problem, which is a story for another day.

I didn't even start counting the days because I didn't really believe I would get this far.

I secretly kept on watching and watching until I got 19. At this time, I had started feeling the urge to ejaculate as I was watching the pornography.

Why are Christians quick to say that there are a lot the gay Christians that exist NOW and use that to pretend that Christianity is just loving to gays when the last 40 years of my life they been horrible?

I did it in my administrator's office.

Have I stopped seeing girls as sex objects? Not entirely, I still want to f*ck some of them.

No self esteem. No confidence. No ambition. Just dreams.

What is something you have to share?

I don't know if all addictions are like this 🤔

RUN 🏃‍♂️ for your dear life

I got tired of always breaking the promises I made to myself.

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Is masturbation and p*rn bad?

There were times I could go 3 months without watching p*rn or masturbating but somehow I always came back to it.

Now I know I have all the nice videos on my phone, the rest I don't have, are not nice. So I had to start watching them one after the other. Some of them were even 2 hours long but I made sure I watched every little bit of it.

What’s something you did a lot as a kid that you don’t miss now that you’re an adult?

I always wished they would sit inappropriately or the wind would blow up their dress so I can see things.

I made sure I downloaded every video that was nice for me. This took almost the whole day.

So I thought had unlocked a new potential in life. I was doing it even if I don't feel the urge. I forced the urge to come by watching pornography.

Why are people with Asperger syndrome unenthusiastic?

A couple of months later I started hating it and regretting after every session. Yet, I couldn't stop.

I know some people masturbate and they don't have the problems I went through.

I went there early in the morning trying to watch a movie and I found the CD inside the video player so I decided to watch what was on it and that was the beginning of the life I never wanted.

Have you ever had a weird experience immediately following the death of a loved one that made you think there is an afterlife and that the deceased person was communicating with you?

Oh, and everyday I woke up tired 😫 I never slept early too. My mental health was nothing to write home about.

I remember sitting on the bed and smiling and that was when it hit me that I have successfully masturbated.

Remember, if nothing changes, nothing changes.

Why does Boko Haram attack its own Muslims?

I did it in my room. I did it in my washroom. I did it in school in the washrooms.

Now how do you quit your addiction?

It took me days to finish watching them. Finally I decided to go to the washroom to do The Last Fap.

Is the Donald Trump Bible any different from a regular Bible? Has Trump altered its contents?

And I can also talk to them now.

But how was I going to do it when everything I knew wasn't working? I didn't know

I so badly wanted to f*uk a girl, yet I was so shy of girls. I never wanted to meet anyone. I always wanted to hide behind the phone and text.

Thinking from a spiritual perspective, can we say that the journey in recovering from narcissistic abuse a battle of spiritual warfare? Any thoughts on this?

Read that again ☝️

Around age 9 I discovered pornography through my uncle, he had left the CD in the video player in the night after enjoying himself.

Am I totally free? I don't know 😕

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And I DID IT EVERYDAY

Now I don't wait to be talked to before I respond. I talk when I think I'm supposed to.

It didn't feel great after ejaculating but hey, who cares about feelings?

What can I do after 18 cops raided my home, without a warrant, seeking a person who didn't live there and wasn't there, and also went through all of my stuff? The person wasn't on the lease, and they didn't see him enter.

I did it while watching my sister. I did it while touching my sister 😭 I did it while watching my landlord's daughter.

So I'm still hanging on this lie.

I knew about masturbation but I didn't actually think of doing it but one day, on my bed when I was preparing to go to school I was watching pornography and something just came in mind; why don't you rob your dick with your hand?

Do you enjoy cheating on your spouse? If so, why?

And these were just the act and not the mental and social problems associated with addiction.

I just finished watching the best of the best p*rn videos on the planet. Now there's nothing else to look for on p*rn sites again.

So all I had to do was to find a way to trick my dirty brain to think that p*rn isn't nice.

What could be the result if I block a covert narc back after he said blocks were going back up, maybe we try this again?

Was quitting worth the effort? At least for my mental health, it's a billion times worth it.

But for me, I would say RUN away from it

I remember I once did it in my classroom at dawn. I did it in the hospital's washrooms. I did it in the lab where I work; both daytime and midnight.

I started rubbing it and I liked how I was feeling so I kept on doing it faster and EUREKA, sperms came out of my dick.

All I knew was that, I couldn't masturbate without p*rn. I was first getting the urge to watch p*rn, while watching, I would now feel like masturbating.

I went on my favourite site and started scrolling through my favourite categories; petite girls, sleeping girls, Japanese girls, Japanese mom, Japanese wife, massage, forced, in the bus, gangb*ng, Muslim girls, ebony, student and teacher, in the classroom, curvy, African, etc

I saw every girl or woman as a sex object including kid girls. There was no way I would look at a woman and not think of f*cking her.

The harder I tried, the worse it became. I could get angry with myself and go about 3 days without it but when I relapse, I can do 3 in a day. And the subsequent days; it's just me getting drowned in the rabbit hole.

There were times I was counting the days when I'm clean. But now I don't, because I got tired of counting and relapsing and starting all over again.

I knew something had to be done about my wasting existence because if nothing changes, then nothing changes.